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What Would You Do?

What would you do?
If another girl came by
The prettiest thing around
With a smile of sly

What would you do?
If she gazed your way
Would you try to talk to her
Or impress her  

What would you do?
If she offered her body
Her mind and soul
Would you leave me?

Leave me behind
Another face in the crowd
To gravitate to her
Circling around her

Leave me to cry
In sorrow and pain
To disappear from your mind
For you to be captured by her eyes 

What would you do?

Battle of the Heart & Mind

I feel abused,
So misused,
Completely undecided,
About the way I feel,

Between my heart,
And my mind, 
Fire begins to rise,
As water rains down, 

The chances I take,
The risks I make,
There’s no stopping,
As I dive straight down,

When is it my turn,
To sit back and watch,
As they chase me down,
And they get hurt,

The pain I could inflict,
The drain you’d feel,
I’d never be able to,
Because I’d be killed. 

Day 42

Still going,
Still breathing,
My heart is,
Still beating,

Another Sunday,
Another dream,
I’m not bursting,
At the seams, 

As I close my eyes,
Things become clear,
Just crystal,
It’s good to be here.

Besides being tired, I’m just relaxed. Chilled to the core and not feeling a lot of emotions. Music did help and just talking to a lot of good people. I do want to see what the rest of this month has in store for me. :crosses fingers: And I hope the good times are to come. 

P.S. Family vacation was fun. 

Don’t Forget

Don’t forget
That in the end
We were happy
Happily free

Can’t change the past
Or the memories
As they fade away
Fade away. 

I don’t want to be forgotton
I want to live forever
But I’ll only be forgotten
If I hold onto the past 

Night

I want to sleep
I don’t want to dream
I’m exhausted
I don’t want to think

I want to lie here
In a dreamless slumber
Wake up to nothing
Wake up to light

But as night creeps in
Thoughts invade my mind
Emotions flood my eyes
Staring at an empty wall

I won’t sleep
I dream of impossible dreams
I’m always tired
Too tired to not think 

Growing Up

Pictures fade,
People change,
Those memories stay,
But it’ll never be the same,

I have to grow up,
I have to move on,
It’s what I need,
It’s what I should,

Can’t keep holding on,
Just have to let go,
Of everything I had given you,
Of everything you were to me, 

You have to grow up,
You have to move on,
It’s what you need,
It’s what you should,

I’ll change myself,
Be free to live,
I’ll be nothing to you,
I’ll be something to me.

I may not be perfect…

loveeverylittlething:

I may not be perfect, I may not always be kind,
I may not always have your feelings in mind.
But I know that you care, With all your heart,
No matter how I treat you, I don’t ever want to be apart,
I have my madness and my insanity, I have my silent temper,
But to know you still stand by me is what makes me feel better,
I may not be perfect, I may not always be kind,
But you always have my feelings in mind.

(Written by Elle)

Missing you.

Missing you

By Elle

I miss your smile
I miss your goofy face
I miss all the things we did
At every place

No matter where I turn
I see a memory
Of us having fun
And being happy

You’d make me laugh
And you made me cry
But all in all
I just wanted you close by

If I could have one wish
I’d wish for you to come back
And for us to be together
Forever and ever.